The Olympic Runner
My lungs were burning
as if on fire
With every step i took
my heart pumped harder
my breath grew more desperate
my legs turned jellylike
"Can't give up
Won't give up
Can't give up"
I chanted silently
in my head
willing my legs
to be that of a robot
willing my breath to slow down
willing my heart to magically enlarge
willing my lungs to cool down
as i tackled the course
A few runners ran past me
Huffing and puffing
i ran harder
Not wanting to be left in the dust
Not wanting to be outrun by them
Not wanting to lose
I thought of the past few months of daily training
I thought of all the hopes pinned on me
I thought of my countrymen
I thought of my coach
I thought of my family
I thought of my Olympic medal dreams
"No i can't lose just like that"
I reminded myself
Pushing on
I ran harder
trying to overtake the other runners
But they were fast
Really fast
Faster than me
"400m more to the finishing line
Go Go Go"
I screamed at myself
mentally
I was losing
I knew it in my heart
yet i did not give up
No matter how hard i pumped my legs
i just could not overtake the other runners
Alas the top three runners dashed past the finishing line
It was over before i knew it
And i finished fifth
I was crushed
My dreams dashed
I had not qualified for a medal
I had not qualified for a medal
I had not qualified for a medal
I knew i had tried my best
but
the fact that my best was not good enough
was horrible
I could not accept it
Placing my palms over my face
i dashed to the toilet
where i cried my heart out in private
vowing to do better in my next Olympic race
as if on fire
With every step i took
my heart pumped harder
my breath grew more desperate
my legs turned jellylike
"Can't give up
Won't give up
Can't give up"
I chanted silently
in my head
willing my legs
to be that of a robot
willing my breath to slow down
willing my heart to magically enlarge
willing my lungs to cool down
as i tackled the course
A few runners ran past me
Huffing and puffing
i ran harder
Not wanting to be left in the dust
Not wanting to be outrun by them
Not wanting to lose
I thought of the past few months of daily training
I thought of all the hopes pinned on me
I thought of my countrymen
I thought of my coach
I thought of my family
I thought of my Olympic medal dreams
"No i can't lose just like that"
I reminded myself
Pushing on
I ran harder
trying to overtake the other runners
But they were fast
Really fast
Faster than me
"400m more to the finishing line
Go Go Go"
I screamed at myself
mentally
I was losing
I knew it in my heart
yet i did not give up
No matter how hard i pumped my legs
i just could not overtake the other runners
Alas the top three runners dashed past the finishing line
It was over before i knew it
And i finished fifth
I was crushed
My dreams dashed
I had not qualified for a medal
I had not qualified for a medal
I had not qualified for a medal
I knew i had tried my best
but
the fact that my best was not good enough
was horrible
I could not accept it
Placing my palms over my face
i dashed to the toilet
where i cried my heart out in private
vowing to do better in my next Olympic race
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